Last night was terrible! Maya has somekind of flu: coughy, snotty but not fever. Coughing is at worst at the night time when she is sleeping. Somehow lying down makes snot coming out and that irritates to cough.
Last night we were up from two to four o'clock. Maya was coughing and swallowing snot untill she threw up! And of course she was sitting on my knees at the time. And of course puke ended to my hand and knees and shirt.... Actually it was everywhere.
Then I cleaned up. Finaly, after having a cough mixture, Maya felt asleep again. And so did I (after noticing that wake-up will be after two hours). You can believe that I was very tired in the morning.
Maya has have this flu from last Thursday so last night was not the first bad night. I'm having a huge loss of sleep. But I can always rest in grave! (That is a Finnish dictum and it doesn't sound very good when it is straitghly traslated to English..)
My car showed up her French temper. Last Sunday while I was driving couple of warning lights came up to the dash of my Citroën, The C-Lady. ABS and ESP. Okay probably ABS-breake system is not working but breakes are working. And ESP is somekind of stabilization system... well I have driven also cars which don't have these modern systems at all. Conclusion - I'll managed, no immediate danger.
I stalled and started again but the warning lights were still there. Hmm, it's not a temporary fault caused for example by electricity disturbance. I'll have to take The C-Lady to the service. I called my husband and we agreed that he is going to take The C-Lady to the service and I borrow his car for that time.
On Monday morning the warning lights were not existing anymore! Surprise! Anyway my husband took The C-lady to the service and they asked to come back if the warnings come again. And after couple of hours the warnings were there again. The service will change some part but not until next week. So far I'm driving a car without ABS- and ESP-systems or maybe they function while the warning lights are gone? We are living exiting times...
18.8.2009
12.8.2009
Dreaming...
I have a small farm in the northern part of country. I have at least one dog, probably more. I don't have to worry about money (maybe I'm a lotto winner).
I hike in the woods and fells with my dogs and friends. I do all kind of tasks on my farm, reading books, draw pictures, make some handiworks and what ever comes on my mind.
Maybe I start agility with one of my dogs again, all my children are grown ups and surviving themselves....
Someday I'll do it!
I hike in the woods and fells with my dogs and friends. I do all kind of tasks on my farm, reading books, draw pictures, make some handiworks and what ever comes on my mind.
Maybe I start agility with one of my dogs again, all my children are grown ups and surviving themselves....
Someday I'll do it!
4.8.2009
Why are we working?
I'm dreaming of a job I can enjoy like I enjoy my hobbies. How marvelous would it be to come to work which satisfy you. I don't have that kind of job and lately I have been wondering is it possible to have one?
I asked one of my friends what is her motivation to work. The answer came straight out: money. It sounds very cold and heartless to say so. But she said if she had enough money for living she would not work for a day.
I don't deny that a salary is very important to me also. And maybe (if I'm honest) it is almost only motivating thing to work at the moment in my present job. But it doesn't have to be so, does it?
I have been in my present job about four and a half year which includes a year and a half maternity leave. And when I came back from that long leave I realized that nothing has changed while I was gone. They were working with same issues than almost two years ago. Hey, we have done those already! It seemed to me that no progression hasn't happened.
My motivation to develop same issues again and again is disappeared. People are working and I descripe a chain of requisite jobs. Then we ponder together can something be improved and so on. So we create together a process, we tested it, everybody were happy... And PANG: negotations start and organisation changes (happends about one to two times in year). People are relocated, teams are broken down, someone is fired etc.
After few weeks situation settles down. Then we have to start again. Study a new organisation, wonder what team is doing what... And guess what? Correct, that process we created before fuss have to be atleast update or even recreate. Okay, the good point of this is that work is not ending. Probably stakeholders get what they wanted (profit). Anyway in my point of view I can't make any sense of this. I didn't get any extra.
Somehow it has to be possible to find satisfying job. The job you come smiling every morning, full on passion to work. I'm sure that job of my dreams is waiting for me to find it!
I asked one of my friends what is her motivation to work. The answer came straight out: money. It sounds very cold and heartless to say so. But she said if she had enough money for living she would not work for a day.
I don't deny that a salary is very important to me also. And maybe (if I'm honest) it is almost only motivating thing to work at the moment in my present job. But it doesn't have to be so, does it?
I have been in my present job about four and a half year which includes a year and a half maternity leave. And when I came back from that long leave I realized that nothing has changed while I was gone. They were working with same issues than almost two years ago. Hey, we have done those already! It seemed to me that no progression hasn't happened.
My motivation to develop same issues again and again is disappeared. People are working and I descripe a chain of requisite jobs. Then we ponder together can something be improved and so on. So we create together a process, we tested it, everybody were happy... And PANG: negotations start and organisation changes (happends about one to two times in year). People are relocated, teams are broken down, someone is fired etc.
After few weeks situation settles down. Then we have to start again. Study a new organisation, wonder what team is doing what... And guess what? Correct, that process we created before fuss have to be atleast update or even recreate. Okay, the good point of this is that work is not ending. Probably stakeholders get what they wanted (profit). Anyway in my point of view I can't make any sense of this. I didn't get any extra.
Somehow it has to be possible to find satisfying job. The job you come smiling every morning, full on passion to work. I'm sure that job of my dreams is waiting for me to find it!
3.8.2009
Back at work again
The summer vacation is over and I'm sitting at the office again. The vacation was nice but too short...
And what I did at the vacation? All kind of things but most important principle was "no too specific plans and schedules". I think I managed to follow that principle quite well.
My daughter Maya and I visited my parent's in the north part of country. We went by a train with my sister and her children. Lovely week but a little bit cold (the most of days less than 10 degrees in Celcius... hrrr). Grandparents were very happy to see all their grandchildren and even I got a day off! Granny took care of the little Maya and I went hiking. Weather was quite windy and cloudy but it wasn't raining. Actually perfect day for hiking. And one more fjeld has been conquered.
More heater weather was waiting for us when we came back to home. Many hot sunny days were ahead us. And we enjoyed them.
And what I did at the vacation? All kind of things but most important principle was "no too specific plans and schedules". I think I managed to follow that principle quite well.
My daughter Maya and I visited my parent's in the north part of country. We went by a train with my sister and her children. Lovely week but a little bit cold (the most of days less than 10 degrees in Celcius... hrrr). Grandparents were very happy to see all their grandchildren and even I got a day off! Granny took care of the little Maya and I went hiking. Weather was quite windy and cloudy but it wasn't raining. Actually perfect day for hiking. And one more fjeld has been conquered.
More heater weather was waiting for us when we came back to home. Many hot sunny days were ahead us. And we enjoyed them.
29.6.2009
I'm exhausted
How tired can man possible be? I'm really exhausted. Fortunately today is Monday and I'm at work - it feels like holiday after taking care of children, cooking, housework and again taking care of children.
Last weekend was quite nice, we were at the cottage and sun was shining. Temperature was nearly 30 Celcius degrees in the shadow. Our little daughter swam for the first time of her life. Or actually she was playing in the waterside and having fun. I think she really enjoyed. She is so young that she can't worry about having too much sunshine or some other things we adults are worrying about. Happy childhood - sometimes I'm missing those carefree days.
Our daughter is allergic to several foodstuff for example cow milk, wheat, oat, rye, potato... Propably all food she reacts at haven't yet found, so she sleeps in 1 to 2 hours clips at the time at nigths. So I haven't either slept well - say about in last two years.
Actually after I came back to work, I haven't be so tired anymore. When you are at home with a little child you are working day and night. So it seems to be little bit easier now when my daughter is at daily care. But of course I'm having bad conscience about that....
Nobody could realise in advance how binding parenthood is. Even if one has taken care of children not his own, one has no idea what is responsibility of parent. After baby has born the reality slaps the face and you just try to your best and manage.
My husband and I were just getting to know each other when I found out that I'm pregnant. We had known each other about 2 or 3 months and suddenly we were having a baby. Without a baby, I'm not even sure that we would be still dating nowadays. I don't mean that we are together just because of child, but maybe we would not solve some adversities in same passion than we have done now. Well that's the way of life and we have just live with it!
Last weekend was quite nice, we were at the cottage and sun was shining. Temperature was nearly 30 Celcius degrees in the shadow. Our little daughter swam for the first time of her life. Or actually she was playing in the waterside and having fun. I think she really enjoyed. She is so young that she can't worry about having too much sunshine or some other things we adults are worrying about. Happy childhood - sometimes I'm missing those carefree days.
Our daughter is allergic to several foodstuff for example cow milk, wheat, oat, rye, potato... Propably all food she reacts at haven't yet found, so she sleeps in 1 to 2 hours clips at the time at nigths. So I haven't either slept well - say about in last two years.
Actually after I came back to work, I haven't be so tired anymore. When you are at home with a little child you are working day and night. So it seems to be little bit easier now when my daughter is at daily care. But of course I'm having bad conscience about that....
Nobody could realise in advance how binding parenthood is. Even if one has taken care of children not his own, one has no idea what is responsibility of parent. After baby has born the reality slaps the face and you just try to your best and manage.
My husband and I were just getting to know each other when I found out that I'm pregnant. We had known each other about 2 or 3 months and suddenly we were having a baby. Without a baby, I'm not even sure that we would be still dating nowadays. I don't mean that we are together just because of child, but maybe we would not solve some adversities in same passion than we have done now. Well that's the way of life and we have just live with it!
25.6.2009
Just wondering
Well, I didn't believe year ago that I'm going to have a blog. Now I'm having it anyway, that's the way of life.
Someone might wonder why I'm writing. I think English practise is the main reason, other reasons (if there is some) I'll keep myself for now on. I need English in my work because contacts to foreign countries. Few months ago I came back to work from maternity leave and English has little bit escaped from my head. I still don't know how that happened :-)
Someone might wonder why I'm writing. I think English practise is the main reason, other reasons (if there is some) I'll keep myself for now on. I need English in my work because contacts to foreign countries. Few months ago I came back to work from maternity leave and English has little bit escaped from my head. I still don't know how that happened :-)
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