What an awful night

Last night was terrible! Maya has somekind of flu: coughy, snotty but not fever. Coughing is at worst at the night time when she is sleeping. Somehow lying down makes snot coming out and that irritates to cough.

Last night we were up from two to four o'clock. Maya was coughing and swallowing snot untill she threw up! And of course she was sitting on my knees at the time. And of course puke ended to my hand and knees and shirt.... Actually it was everywhere.

Then I cleaned up. Finaly, after having a cough mixture, Maya felt asleep again. And so did I (after noticing that wake-up will be after two hours). You can believe that I was very tired in the morning.

Maya has have this flu from last Thursday so last night was not the first bad night. I'm having a huge loss of sleep. But I can always rest in grave! (That is a Finnish dictum and it doesn't sound very good when it is straitghly traslated to English..)

My car showed up her French temper. Last Sunday while I was driving couple of warning lights came up to the dash of my Citroën, The C-Lady. ABS and ESP. Okay probably ABS-breake system is not working but breakes are working. And ESP is somekind of stabilization system... well I have driven also cars which don't have these modern systems at all. Conclusion - I'll managed, no immediate danger.

I stalled and started again but the warning lights were still there. Hmm, it's not a temporary fault caused for example by electricity disturbance. I'll have to take The C-Lady to the service. I called my husband and we agreed that he is going to take The C-Lady to the service and I borrow his car for that time.

On Monday morning the warning lights were not existing anymore! Surprise! Anyway my husband took The C-lady to the service and they asked to come back if the warnings come again. And after couple of hours the warnings were there again. The service will change some part but not until next week. So far I'm driving a car without ABS- and ESP-systems or maybe they function while the warning lights are gone? We are living exiting times...

Dreaming...

I have a small farm in the northern part of country. I have at least one dog, probably more. I don't have to worry about money (maybe I'm a lotto winner).

I hike in the woods and fells with my dogs and friends. I do all kind of tasks on my farm, reading books, draw pictures, make some handiworks and what ever comes on my mind.

Maybe I start agility with one of my dogs again, all my children are grown ups and surviving themselves....

Someday I'll do it!

Why are we working?

I'm dreaming of a job I can enjoy like I enjoy my hobbies. How marvelous would it be to come to work which satisfy you. I don't have that kind of job and lately I have been wondering is it possible to have one?

I asked one of my friends what is her motivation to work. The answer came straight out: money. It sounds very cold and heartless to say so. But she said if she had enough money for living she would not work for a day.

I don't deny that a salary is very important to me also. And maybe (if I'm honest) it is almost only motivating thing to work at the moment in my present job. But it doesn't have to be so, does it?

I have been in my present job about four and a half year which includes a year and a half maternity leave. And when I came back from that long leave I realized that nothing has changed while I was gone. They were working with same issues than almost two years ago. Hey, we have done those already! It seemed to me that no progression hasn't happened.

My motivation to develop same issues again and again is disappeared. People are working and I descripe a chain of requisite jobs. Then we ponder together can something be improved and so on. So we create together a process, we tested it, everybody were happy... And PANG: negotations start and organisation changes (happends about one to two times in year). People are relocated, teams are broken down, someone is fired etc.

After few weeks situation settles down. Then we have to start again. Study a new organisation, wonder what team is doing what... And guess what? Correct, that process we created before fuss have to be atleast update or even recreate. Okay, the good point of this is that work is not ending. Probably stakeholders get what they wanted (profit). Anyway in my point of view I can't make any sense of this. I didn't get any extra.

Somehow it has to be possible to find satisfying job. The job you come smiling every morning, full on passion to work. I'm sure that job of my dreams is waiting for me to find it!

Back at work again

The summer vacation is over and I'm sitting at the office again. The vacation was nice but too short...

And what I did at the vacation? All kind of things but most important principle was "no too specific plans and schedules". I think I managed to follow that principle quite well.

My daughter Maya and I visited my parent's in the north part of country. We went by a train with my sister and her children. Lovely week but a little bit cold (the most of days less than 10 degrees in Celcius... hrrr). Grandparents were very happy to see all their grandchildren and even I got a day off! Granny took care of the little Maya and I went hiking. Weather was quite windy and cloudy but it wasn't raining. Actually perfect day for hiking. And one more fjeld has been conquered.

More heater weather was waiting for us when we came back to home. Many hot sunny days were ahead us. And we enjoyed them.